Making memories one day at a time.......and then I write about it.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Baby William


My baby sis had her baby.  She had a darling little baby boy.  I'd hold it against her, not having a girl and all, but I'd be a hypocrite considering how many baby boys I had and love dearly.

So, instead of frills and ruffles and flowers............ I made a fisherman's cable knit sweater for baby Will.  I figured I'd make it big enough he can wear it this winter.  That was until my baby sis told me how much my nephew weighs already!  He's very petite and tiny with all of his sumo chub, chins, rolls, and deliciousness.

I asked my baby sis what in the world she was feeding my nephew and she told me she has him on a strict diet of pure cream!

I got the pattern for this sweater out of the, 60 Quick Baby Knits book and used Plymouth Encore DK Yarn in a charcoal grey color.

Don't worry Alex....... I've not forgotten your baby!

My family is having babies way too fast for my knitting fingers to keep up!!!

Monday, June 11, 2012

Utah Valley 1/2 Marathon

My medal!  
 Remember this post?  The post where I said I was going to run the Utah Valley 1/2 marathon?   This is a follow up and as you can see from the lousy above picture that was taken from my phone, I did it!!!

I say "I" loosely as I feel quite humbled in where I give credit.  I am a firm believer in a Father in Heaven who loves us dearly and knew His little girl wanted this badly and helped her to achieve it.

My supporters who don't look very excited to be up at such an unearthly hour sitting in the cold waiting for their Mum to run by.  
 The beginning.  I declared I was going to run the 1/2 marathon and started training.  I only had a few weeks to train and no idea how to go about it.  A good friend of our family, Kekau Arakaki took on the giant responsibility of getting me ready for the race and the training began.  After running I would have to text/email/facebook and report to "Coach".  Sometimes it wasn't until close to 11:00 at night before I'd finish.  Knowing that I had to report made a big difference and help.

Early in my training my friend Natalie, who is an awesome runner and has done 1/2 marathons before, told me she would train with me.  She'd had surgery on her foot a few months ago and wanted to get back to running again.  I told her that I don't run.  I sloth along.  I would be holding her back but she was welcome to train with me.  I'm so glad she still wanted to!!!  I had so much fun training and running with Natalie!

Can you all tell I'm still on a runners high from the race?  (Squeal)

Sleep deprived and yanked out of bed.  "This is the stupidest parade ever!!"
 The day before the race came.  Time to pick up our packets and running bibs.  I was fine until I went to where we picked up our packets.  It was so cool!!  I kept looking around at all of the people, the vendors, and marveling that I was a part of this!  Natalie helped me find my number and packet and we walked around to see what people were selling.  We did end up buying some hydration belts which I am so glad we did.  Proved to be a good impulse buy.  I'll talk hydration belts another day.

As I said, I was fine until I went to get my packet.  Then the butterflies started in my tummy.  I kept telling myself that it was just going to be another day of running.  The only difference.  I'd be surrounded by tons of people running in the same direction I was.   My tummy wasn't buying it.

Henny Penny sees Natalie and me and comes running to greet us.
 The evening before.  Time to carb load.  The adrenaline starts to build.  I make a huge mistake!  I eat tacos with lots of hot sauce.  I'm thinking it will help my system clear out because..... ya know..........  that poop thing I have issues with when I run.  I wanted to clear out my system before the race so I wouldn't have to deal with it.  Load up on the salsa baby and grape fruit!!

Flit around the house when I should be going to bed like a maniac because I can't focus.  The SM makes me sit down and make a list of things I need to take the next morning and then get them all ready.  Boy am I glad he made me do that.  I couldn't think or focus for anything!  I'd have forgotten my clothes I'm sure and run in the buff it weren't for him I was so scatterbrained!

Levi and Henny Penny greeting us and Levi telling me he likes to run too!
 Natalie and I needed to leave at 3:30 the next morning to catch the bus that would take us to the start of the race.  Time to go to bed early and get some sleep before I had to get up at 3:00 AM.

I went to bed.  I told myself to get some sleep.  My body/brain didn't listen.  I tossed and turned all night until 3:00AM.  I got up and started to get ready.  My main focus for the morning.  POOP!  Yes, I really do get that much anxiety about pooping before I run because if I don't........ I know what happens.

My anxiety builds.  What happened to all that salsa and grapefruit and the TONS of food I ate the night before???  I'm not pooping!!!

Time to go catch the bus!  Natalie comes and picks me up and we are on our way!!  We sit in the parking lot for a few minutes and eat some more.  I start to feel like hurling.  What goes in....... must come out........  It hasn't yet!!

Taking off our sweatshirts and throwing them for The SM to grab for us and take to the truck.
 The bus ride seemed like it took forever!  I could not believe that in a few hours I was going to run where the bus was taking us and surely the bus took a wrong turn because seriously, it felt like the bus was taking us to Idaho!  I was sure when I got off I'd be in another state.

We arrived at our starting place.  It was still dark outside, the moon up, tons of people milling about, laying around, huddling around fires....  I wish I had a photo of the start because it felt like we were at Wood Stock or something.  All of these fires all over the hillside and thousands of people sitting/laying/walking around.  So cool!!!

I had an hour and a half before the race to get my body to take me seriously and unload!  Natalie and I decided standing around with eyes watering from the smoke wasn't helping.  Maybe walking around.  Nope.

Maybe if we sat in one of the hundreds of biffys my body would get the idea.  Nope!

Time to line up for the race.  NOOOOOO!  I HAVEN'T POOPED YET!!!

Two minutes before the gun goes off, Natalie is calling to me outside of the door of my biffy.  We need to go!  Fabulous..... I resign myself to my doom.

Jackets and sweatshirts off, we re position our hydration belts and keep on running!
 Rather than being caught up in the masses of thousands of runners, we stayed at the back.  We were one of the last ones to cross the starting line.  No biggie.  Our running bibs had computer chips in them so our timing wouldn't start until we crossed the start line.  Being at the back is also great strategy in that you don't have to be depressed as everyone passes you.  You get to start passing people.

We're off and running.  The view in the canyon we ran in was gorgeous!  We ran and took it all in.  The first hill arrives.  I don't want to walk.  I want to keep running.  My goal, if possible, is to run the whole thing.  If I can't........ no biggie........ but I want to try.

We do it!  We top the hill a little winded and enjoy the level terrain.   Aid stations appear along the way.  We grab our waters and keep running.  I pass biffys and marvel that I don't have to go to the bathroom!  Isn't this marvelous!!   I pass another aid station and get my water and pass another set of biffys.  Amazing!! No need to use the biffy!!!

And then......... it hits.......... and I've still got a mile or more until I reach the next biffys at mile 6!  I will be forever haunted by mile 6!!

I came around the corner in hyper drive so relieved to see the biffys only to have my relief sink in horror.  Everyone in the entire state of Utah needed to use the biffy at mile number 6!  I had to sit in line for almost ELEVEN WHOLE STINKING MINUTES because that is when my stupid salsa grapefruit dinner decided to make it's exit!

I can not tell you what it did to my competitive self  standing there in such an agonizingly long line as person after person passed by me.  A thousand people got ahead of me!!!

Moving on.  I promise I won't talk about pooping anymore.  Well, in this blog post at least.

More crazy people getting up way too early for a parade of runners.  
 As I mentioned before, the first half of the race was in the canyon.  We had a headwind but it wasn't bad.  It felt good actually.  Natalie and I chatted off and on.  Not our normal non stop chatter like we did while training.  I was too busy taking it all in.  I honestly could not grinning the entire time.

As we got closer to the finish, people on the side who were cheering would comment that Natalie and I were still smiling!  If they only knew.......... if they only knew what being in this race meant to me!  What I had over come!  Where I had been just a few months earlier!  In bed.  Not enough strength to climb in and out hardly!  A dream I'd had............. out of my reach.........  or so I'd thought at the time!

Yes!  I was smiling!  I was living a dream!

The finish!  Hugging Natalie and telling her thank you for running with me!
 As we came up over the last rise, I could see way off in the distance where the finish line was.  I could see the tall buildings where the finish line was and I started to get even more excited.  I told Natalie that I could see it!  I could see the finish line!

I'm like a horse that smells the barn.  My body started to go faster.  I was so close!  And then four miles to the finish......  the unbearable pain started.  I tried changing my stride to see if it would help.  I knew I wasn't running with good form anymore.  I was using precious energy trying to compensate and keep going.  I was starting to take smaller steps and curl inward.

Pain from where I'd had surgery two years ago.  Oh Nellie!!!  If it hadn't been for Natalie running with me, I'm not sure I could have kept going.  I just kept staring at the finish line and telling Natalie I could see it!  We were almost there.

When trying different running strides didn't help, all I could think of was the faster I get to the finish, the faster the pain will stop!  Kick it into high gear.  And we did!  We picked up the pace.


As we got closer to the finish line I looked over at Natalie and grinned.  GAME ON SISTER!  This was a race right???  I started to sprint.  Natalie accepted the call and sprinted with me.  We went sprinting down the finish gates and as we crossed the finish (me just about cutting her off by mistake) I grabbed her hand and we finished hand in hand together laughing our heads off.

What an amazing experience!!

We're done!  We've got our medals and are coming over to say hi to The SM and The Native's!
 I've never known what a runners high was before.  Boy do I know now.  Couldn't stop grinning through the whole race, even when I was in pain.  Couldn't stop grinning after for hours.  Did stop grinning for a nap...... Started grinning again and continued to grin all day yesterday...........

Winners!
 Still grinning today!  Which is why........  I have decided.......  to make a goal........ to run the full marathon next year!  I've a year to prepare!  Yes, you heard me right!  Bring it!!


WON'T QUIT FIGHTING!

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Brokenhearted


Thank you for saving my life.  Twice!


Thank you for the midnight rides.


Thank you for taking care of my babies when they were on your back.


Thank you for going forehead to forehead and bringing peace to my spirit.


Thank you for taking care of me when I was too weak to ride but knew that I'd be safe on your back.

April 1997-June 6, 2012

Dear Deer


In the bee video I mention seeing the deer in the field but you can't see them on the video.  You all thought I was making it up didn't ya?

Well, this is taken from my upstairs bedroom window and is proof to you all that the deer are there..... and portrayed in the movie, "Bambi" they are all cute and big eyed and oh dear!

Oh dear....... why are all of the tops missing on my tulips?

Oh dear....... why are my veggies looking half eaten?

Oh dear........ what are these tiny little hoof prints in my flower beds?

OH DEER!

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Dreams

Dreams are odd.  If it is a good dream I don't mind waking up and resting in bed for a few minutes reveling in the feeling from the dream.  The flip side, if it is an ick dream.......  I HATE THAT!  Like the times I used to dream that The SM cheated on me.  Oh man!  That man got my wrath the entire day.  I don't care if he did it or not.  In my dream he did and I felt like he'd done it and boy was I going to make him pay!

The SM would laugh at me and hold his hands up in surrender telling me that HE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!  Yeah riiiiiiight.  I saw you with Miss Bimbo and I can't believe you did such and such and I totally caught you!!!

The feeling is sickening.  It stays with you all day and even though rationally you know that your husband didn't cheat on you......... you feel like he did!

The best day of my entire life was the morning that The SM woke up, looked at me, and asked me how in the world I could do that!!  YES!!  Finally it was my turn.  Oh joy!  Happiness!  Dance a jig and jump on the bed. Take that!!  Isn't so funny is it Mr??  Was he cute?  Tell me who ever it was was cute!  Anyone I know??  Dig dig dig make The SM really feel it.  (Insert evil cackle).

This morning I woke up and felt as if my heart had been wrenched from my body never to be returned.  I had to keep telling myself that it was just a dream.  The two children that I had dreamed had died were alive and well.  It was just a dream!  Oh awfulness.  I didn't know where they'd been buried.  It was Memorial Day weekend and I was sobbing because I hadn't decorated their graves!  I couldn't remember the funeral.

The SM took me to the cemetery and I cried even more because someone had put a little toy on Levi's grave for me.  It wasn't from me.  I hadn't gone on Memorial Day to visit and why hadn't I gone everyday?  Why had I not visited yet?

Then I saw the grave marker.  What??  The SM told me that he had designed it himself.  It had Levi's name on it and engraved next to it was a bottle of A&W Root beer!  The SM was so proud of the engraving and the writing which was old world.  Why in the world is there a bottle of soda engraved on my baby's headstone?  That was the only decor!!  Because Levi likes soda!

I believe that there are lessons to be learned from dreams.  The lesson from this one is that there is no way in heck I am going to allow The SM to design my head stone.  (Because I'm going first).  I can only imagine what he would put on mine................

Monday, June 4, 2012

Bees


I am soooo far behind in my blogging.  Much has been going on in the Rubow household and I can't seem to keep up.  This is old news but news never the less which is something fun that is taking place in our back yard.

The arrival of the bees.  Back in the spring, the bees arrived.  They came in this wooden box that my boys are looking at.  The big white marshmallow with the hat is The SM, soon to be, The Keeper of the Bees.


The process is quite fascinating.  The bees come in this wooden box.  The queen bee comes in her own little box which is in The SM's hands.   I should have taken a picture of her in her own little apartment.  The queen bee is stuck in this little apartment, her way blocked so she can't come out.  The SM is removing the part that is blocking her and replacing it with a marshmallow.  She'll still be blocked in her apartment but with a marshmallow instead of ummm, a cork?  I didn't pay close attention to what was blocking her before.

The queen's apartment is then placed in with the bees and then the bees are left alone for a week.  If the bees accept the queen, they'll eat the marshmallow thus freeing her.  If they don't...... well....... thankfully our bees accepted their queen and let her out of her apartment.  They've been busy filling the hive with babies every since.

I'm getting ahead of myself.......


The local help is so.............  helpful.................


Who raised this punk??

Time to put the bees in the hive!

P.S.  Time to get a new videographer.  The person who took this video would not shut up the whole entire time!  Grief!  Some people!!

Monday, May 21, 2012

Henny Penny's Recital

A few weekends ago Henny Penny had a dance recital.  One of the perks of living next to a University is you get to take advantage of the many programs they offer such as dance classes for youth.


My neighbor across the street introduced us to this dance program.  Her daughter participated and invited us to one of her concerts.


I was so impressed at how the dance company allowed the little girls to be little girls.  There wasn't the usual shaking of the hips and gyrating that you see today and wonder why we are teaching little girls to act like they are going to have careers walking the streets when they are older.


They start the children out teaching them to let their bodies move and flow with the music.  Slowly they introduce technique.


So refreshing!  When we went to this recital to see Henny Penny we watched other classes of younger children skip, and twirl, and hop, and more skipping........ little girls being little girls.


As I sat and watched and listened to their little bare feet pitter patter across the stage back and forth I couldn't help but smile and feel uplifted inside!


It reminded me of little girls playing princess or galloping ponies together.  Things little girls should be doing.


In Henny Penny's dance number, the little girls were encouraged to choreograph their dance.  They were broken up into groups and each group would come up with a series of moves.  The teacher then put the moves together to make up their dance.  The results as you will see is beautiful.  Little girls being little girls.

 I present to you Henny Penny's dance number: (sorry for the video quality..... it's lousy but you'll get the idea).