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Thursday, February 7, 2013

Julie



As I am sitting here writing this I am frustrated that the photos I want, the photos that best represent Julie, are on disks somewhere and I am too tired to go and look for them.  My head is pounding.  I've cried a million tears today.


Levi lays on the floor on several blankets with several more on top of him, the fire raging trying to get him warm.  I got a phone call from the school today.  Levi had gone down.  He was in a seizure.  What?  When did it start?  I'm silent.

How can this be happening?  How can it be that our Levi went down at the same time as something he had no idea was happening.  Julie.  Levi's angel dog Julie was going to have a rest now.

This was taken this morning before taking Julie to the vet.  Henny Penny covered her in her blankie and put her pillow pet under Julie's head.  You can see the look on Julie's face.  She is not well.  This is not the face that Julie usually wears.
I'm trying to wrap my brain around this day.  This morning when I got The Native's up for school it was very apparent that something was wrong with Julie.  She wouldn't come downstairs and when I finally coaxed her to, she wouldn't eat or drink.  I wish I had video of what a spaz she is in the morning until she gets her food.  It is quite humorous.  Not this morning.........  I called the vet and made an appointment and then got The Native's off to school.   I figured maybe Julie had eaten something.  Had her bowels blocked.  No biggie.  Only, it was a biggie.  We didn't know that Julie had a tumor and it had ruptured.  She had very little time left to live.  She went peacefully.  For that I am grateful.  She didn't suffer.


Then the phone call from the school.  Levi, at about the same time Julie left this world, went into a seizure.  He's down and not coherent.  He's not responding when talked to.  

Levi doesn't know about Julie yet.  He's still not coherent.  He is still having seizures.  Levi doesn't know, but his spirit obviously does........ and his spirit is in deep mourning as we all are............  

I believe in miracles.  Julie is proof of miracles and how she came to be Levi's dog. (Click on link for story). I know that just as Heavenly Father brought her to Levi, he has called her home to rest.  She's worked hard and taken such good care of our Levi.  I know that our Father loves Levi very much.  He has something in store for him.  I don't know what, but I do know, that someday, when Levi leaves this earth life, there will be a miracle dog named Julie waiting for him on the other side.

14 comments:

  1. Oh, Rachel. I am so sorry for your loss. Such a beautiful, regal, and obviously deeply wise dog. Yes, she most certainly happened upon your lawn for a reason.

    I pray Levi is well soon (as well as one can be in the circumstances).

    Hugs to you all...

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  2. My head hurts, too. Just looking at the pictures hurts. I don't think it's better later. I know it will be, but not now.

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  3. Oh, sweet pea....my heart hurts, too. Do you know about the Rainbow Bridge? Shall I send you a copy to share with your tribe? I can't imagine the day you have had...wish I was there to help....

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    1. The Rainbow Bridge? I've not heard of it...... Does it answer my question of who is taking care of Julie right now because I know her spirit was always so focused on Levi.... Maybe, she walks beside us but because of the veil we can't see her but she still has here eye on Levi....... I dunno....... this all just hurts too much still.

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  4. I love you, beautiful one!!!! Love you only as this auntie can.

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  5. No words, Rachel. Just tears. I am so sorry to hear about Julie. What an amazing bond Julie and Levi had.

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  6. I am so sorry for your loss. Hope there is another miracle waiting in the wings for you...soon!

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  7. Oh Rachel, I am so, so sorry to read this and despite sitting here for the last half an hour I cannot think of any other words to say - they all seem so deeply inadequate. Much love and hugs to you all, especially precious Levi xxxx

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  8. I'm sorry, Rachel. I'll be praying for you guys.

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  9. Thank you all...... Thank you so much. Levi is doing very well. He's been up and around. Asking questions about his Julie and clutching to her collar but up and healthy again.

    I'm still a mess!! I've been through so many ranges of emotions. Watching Levi down and not having Julie here like she normally is laying next to him keeping watch, putting Levi to bed alone last night and not wanting to leave him without his guardian at the end of his bed there to alert us if something wasn't right..... I miss Julie coming up to me and laying her head on my lap and looking at me for a few seconds and then laying down at my feet...... I miss watching Julie pace because she knows Levi is outside and she's worried about him.....

    We're in the process of getting another dog for Levi. I'm struggling. I don't want another dog. I want Julie. I'm trying to trust in God that He will perform another miracle for Levi and find Levi the perfect dog for him... but I'm also fighting because another dog will be different and I don't want different... I want Julie...... Ack!!! Time. Time will heal...

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  10. I'm so sorry about Julie, and the struggles Levi is going through (as well as yourself; transitions/changes can be tough!). I love your faith though. I know as well as you do that Levi is being watched over. I will pray for him regardless...
    Corine :)

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  11. Julie must have been a furry angel. I can only imagine how hard it was for you and Levi and the entire family.

    The death of Julie demonstrates something really incredible about your son. He feels deeply. Wow.

    Maybe little Zoe needs to come visit Chica . . . with Levi, of course!

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    1. I still feel the loss of Julie. Yesterday while at Pets Mart there was a lady there with an Irish Setter. I NEVER see Irish Setters. My heart did a flip and then a flop. I miss her badly......

      I was actually thinking of that! Zoe coming to visit Chica! She gets her shots tomorrow and then she can start coming and playing with friends. We need to introduce her to lots of dogs for her socialization. That would be fun to visit because then I'd get to see you! :D

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