|Love this man. We just celebrated 20 years of wedded bliss. I'm blessed.|
This photo says and means everything to me. It speaks volumes about love, family, a daddy who loves his children and spends time with them, security, the future, my whole world. Happiness.
2012 has been an amazing year in some ways and tough in others. It started out difficult with my health but as the year progressed I was blessed and accomplished many things. Huge projects with the youth program in my church. A 1/2 marathon. More huge programs with the youth. More days of good health than days of bad health.
It was also a year of loss. The passing of a dear friend. The passing of some hopes and dreams. As the year came to a close it went with my heart hurting and me on my knees wondering if I'd have the strength or desire for that matter to keep trusting. There are some things that we have no control over. Things that we have to put in God's hands and believe and know that His hands hold our troubles better than we ever could.
This past Sunday I was given a message from our Father. The person giving the message had no idea that they were speaking to me, giving me a message from our Father. That is usually how He does it.
This story was read during a lesson to the youth:
I listened to the message that I was being given and it burned within my heart. The things that I want fixed now, the Lord knows. He also knows what is best and what will bring the most learning and growth and so he tarries for a few days. It doesn't mean that He doesn't know or care. As I grieve and weep, He weeps.
Later as the Lord raises Lazarus from the dead, the same will happen for me. For all of us. The things we weep for will be healed and 'raised from the dead'.
As I look to this New Year, a fresh start, I look with a feeling of peace in my heart. In the past I've told myself that it could always be worse and to be grateful for what I have. This is still true but this year, I choose to stop looking for things that are worse to try and help make things not seem so bad around me. Instead I hope to focus on the hands stretched out to me, to reach for those hands, and to keep my eyes focused and reaching to those hands and let Him take the burdens that seem at times so heavy on my shoulders and heart.