Wednesday, November 5, 2014
I have been sharing emails with you from my son Mr. T (second eldest son) who is serving a mission for our church, the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and bragging about how proud I am of my son.
Mr. B, is my eldest son and it is his turn for me to brag about him. Mr. B is fighting a battle. A battle for his life. Literally. He has started a blog and is writing about this fight. I've not talked about Mr. B and the struggles he's had over the years because of privacy but since he has chosen to write about what he is going through and has gone through, I can now stand here in as a proud parent and tell you how much I love this boy who has struggled for so long with an addiction to pornography. Yes, my son has a sexual addiction. Yes, my son has struggled with depression. Yes, my son has struggled with thoughts and attempts of suicide. This has been a long battle that started when he was about 8 or 9. He is now 21 in December and still fighting.
Mr. B has started his blog knowing that he will be judged. He will be shunned by those who pretended to be his friend. He might even be harassed/bullied. He knows this. But, despite knowing this, he is picking himself up, standing up, looking the world in the face, and saying, "I have an addiction. I've let it beat me for years. It stops now".
There have been many battles in this war Mr. B is fighting. It is wearying. It is exhausting. As his mother, I have watched him, cried with him, held him, worried over him, lost sleep over him, prayed over him, and never stopped loving him. I am proud of my son. Yes, my son has an addiction. It's a difficult addiction, but this addiction does not define my son.
My son, Mr. B is kind, sensitive, caring, hard working, and an example to all of being a fighter and not giving up.
Have I mentioned how proud I am of my son?! I am. I am SO proud of Mr. B! He brings me and The SM and our family such joy.
His blog if you'd like to read/follow and encourage him in his fight: http://myfinalstand.blogspot.com/
Just a warning. It is honest and brutal. Mr. B doesn't hold back. It may come across offensive to some. And that's okay.