We've been hearing about it in the news for about a week now. A big storm is coming. Prepare for several inches of snow on the valley floor. More in the mountains.
I can feel the storm coming. The warning signs are there. It starts out slow. I feel a few raindrops on my face. The wind begins to pick up ruffling my hair. Not enough to disturb me too much but enough that I notice. I carry on hoping. Wishing that the storm will somehow pass me by. I know it won't....... but I still hold onto a thread that somehow if I lay down and rest in the grass with a blanket over me the storm will change direction and miss me.
The rain comes down faster, harder turning into hail that beats upon my back. I can't get up, the wind pushing against me so fiercely. It is too strong, this storm. I am too weak. I can not fight it. I wait out the storm. My instinct is to close my eyes tight and curl up into a ball. I don't. During a storm is when you can see magical things happen. Those of the fairy and woodland world come out. I see them flitting about mending things, placing warm things against my aching back, brushing/kissing my cheek as their wings flutter past me. Feeding me both body and soul.
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| Spring always comes after the cold of winter. |
The storm begins to wane. I am able to lift my head off of the ground and look around. As the sun comes out the warmth permeates and flows through my body giving me strength. I stand up and look around. The color is so much brighter, the world around me so much cleaner, the air I breath deeply into my lungs crisp. The rainbow above me a promise from a Father that there will never be a flood again. Storms come and go in our lives but we will never be given more than we can handle............
Wishing you strength to handle this one.
ReplyDeletei adore your feet. if they weren't big ole' adult feet - i would kiss them.
ReplyDeleteAnaise, Thank you! Nothing that rest and time can't heal. West Nile raging its ugly head.
ReplyDeleteMisty, big ole' feet in need of a pedicure!!! :)
Dork. I told you so.
ReplyDeleteDo you need warm things from this quarter? I mean, right now?
Kristen, Picture me making a face at you with my tongue stuck out blowing strawberries!!
ReplyDeleteNo, I've got my heating pad wrapped around my back so it's all good. Just waiting out the storm....
You know, you're one to talk you crazy mad woman!!! Look who runs herself into the ground all the time!! Look in the mirror! :D
I am waiting for a storm, too...but I love a storm - in any season. All storms but ice. Just not ready to give up on winter yet....
ReplyDeleteAnd I don't know if Kristen can picture it, but I can...but then I work with little kids every day! :-)
Donna, I love storms too. The kind that nature brings. Not the human health kind of storms.....
ReplyDeleteKristen will be the first to let you know that I can be quite childish a lot of the time. :) She can see me from a distance and know what is going on. She reads me that well.
Wishing you gentle, healing breezes.
ReplyDeleteHugs...
Wabi, Thank you for your gentle healing wish...... hugs back to you....
ReplyDeleteI hope its not too bad Rachel, its good knowing the rainbow is waiting on the other side....better pack some sugar lumps to tide you over and practice that horse maneuver in your dreams ;-) Health issues are crap or CRAP as you well know. MY SIL is going thru her own storm at the moment, its hard to stand on the sidelines and feel so helpless. I can relate to Kristen I think, hugs to you xx
ReplyDeleteRachel, I wasn't trying to make light of your pain....I didn't get it...I missed it entirely. Too literal a reading on my part. Sorry. Hope you are better today.
ReplyDeleteJenni, It's not terrible. I've been worse, it can always be worse. The hardest part for me is the strain it puts on the family. That part is really CRAP!! Thank you for your kind words and hugs and thoughts. :D xx
ReplyDeleteDonna, Noooo! No worries! How could you know. I'm a terrible blogger. I write as if everyone has been reading from the very beginning and knows everything about everything I've ever written. :D I got West Nile about six years ago. I have chronic West Nile. It can be quite painful at times as it has affected me neurologically. I now have seizures... short term memory loss..... confusion..... yada yada yada yada. :D When I wrote this post I was describing the West Nile. It comes like a storm. The hail on my back is the pain in my back that I use a heating pad to ease the pain. The wind pushing against my limbs so that I can't lift them is the muscle fatigue. And when it is over.... :) I feel greatly blessed and look around me appreciating that the storm had passed and I am able to get up and around until the next storm hits. :D
Kristen was getting after me because she could see it coming. I've been trying to do too much. Hard not too when I used to be able to run at that pace..... I miss the old me.... but I am grateful for the blessings and things I am learning through this process which is where the part in the story came in where I said that I keep my eyes open. So I can see the magic.
Hugs!! xx
See, now that that I have a better idea your storm story is even more compelling. I just thought it was well written before, but now I see that it comes from a much deeper place...and you are even more amazing to me! Aside from the whole mothering and crafting and living fully thing...more amazing than that!
ReplyDeleteDonna, Not amazing. An ordinary spaz. :) But thank you.
ReplyDeleteHugs, Rach. Have faith. I know you know this, but there are so many instances where it is confirmed over and over again that God really does want to heal us of our afflictions. Here's one for today--“For I will restore health to you and heal you of your wounds,” says the Lord. (Jeremiah 30:17)
ReplyDeleteLori, Thank you. I do know this but it doesn't hurt to be reminded again. It's that whole, "In the Lord's time". I'm always of the opinion that His time should pretty much match up with my time. :D
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you are such a faith filled lady. Where would we be without faith? This would be a much harder burden to bear if I didn't have the faith that I have.