As I mentioned in my last post I have been sick for quite some time. Not urpy throw up sick. Something else. We don't know what........we keep calling it a West Nile relapse because that is what it feels like but as the spring has progressed I have been getting worse. On Friday I went to the doctor's. They took blood and are doing several tests. We are waiting for the results.
It has been a hard week. I feel like I am a shell of who I used to be. Yesterday I sobbed in the shower because spring is my favorite time of year. I love to garden. I love to plant flowers. I should be outside doing these things. But.......I'm not.
Yesterday Brian helped me plant two hanging baskets. I love flowers. They make me happy. When I am at Cost-Co I like to get myself some because I feel like life is too short not to enjoy and get fresh cut flowers. I'm nuts about flowers.
I am learning to take each day as it comes and enjoy what I can out of each day. Yesterday my happy thought was the flowers. They made me happy. Levi helped me water them. He enjoyed "helping" me. It wasn't the normal hanging baskets that I do. They aren't fancy and Levi may have washed away more dirt out of the baskets but it doesn't matter. He was happy and thought he was helping.
When I have good days we'll just have to be more spur of the moment and take the opportunities when we can. It is all about family. It has always been about family but this whatever it is that I have has made it even more so for me. I have very little energy. I can't be letting outside things take what little energy I have away from my family. It is about the little things now. Taking life easier and slower. This isn't a bad thing. So there is my happy thought for today.